Doing things because I can

I started in this website in 2019… it’s had many names and many make overs in that period of time, you know.

It’s transitions mimic my own.

It started as a way to make money. People had always told me I was talented and creative. So, I thought “someone would buy this”. Which, sure, I made a little cash here and there, but it was nothing to write home about. Definitely not enough to quit my day job. Honestly, it wasn't even enough to cover my husbands Chipotle order 😒

But yet, I've kept it.

I've paid hundreds of dollars every month just to keep it up… Sometimes I ask myself why. It almost feels like this is my little slice of the internet. Where I can be authentically myself without performing. I’ve never even considered any of my side quests becoming the main one. And maybe that’s why this is so special to me. Why I keep pouring myself into it.

It’s become an outlet. And through my invisible side quests, I'm free to be messy. I'm free to put it down, and pick it up when I want. Theres no pressure. No one looking forward to my content. Other than myself.

Maybe I'm using this as a diary. A memoir. An accumulation of my life's work. ✨️

Maybe I'm hoping someone stumbles upon it.

I do believe its so much more magical when you find things through chance, don't you think? It'd be so amazing one day, if this somehow found me in my real life. Believe it or not, Pixie isn'tmy real name.

Someone would say, I found this random website where this person wrote about bots, and gardens, and trauma. Like… Why isn’t the internet interesting anymore?

I hope when people stumble to my site, they feel free to be authentically themselves too. You dont have to subscribe to a single version of yourself. You can learn python to code a bot AND you can love hair and makeup at the same time.

Don't swim in one lane.